I HATE MYSELF FOR WHATEVER I HAVE DONE AND WHATEVER I FAILED TO CHERISH AND WHAT I FAILED TO ACCOMPLISH AND BREAKING PROMISES
I FEEL LOST AND INSECURE
AND I'M LOSING MY BREATH
AND I FEEL SO INCOMPETENT
AND SO LOST AND INSECURE
I DON'T GET PEOPLE.
I DON'T WANT TO BE LIKE THAT.
I DON'T WANT TO LOSE
YET I HAVE TO
NO MATTER HOW HARD I TRY
I HAVE TO LEARN
AND I AM PERSEVERING
I SACRIFICE
BUT THERE IS NO APPRECIATION IN RETURN
HOLDING ON TIGHT
WITH ARDOUR, EXPECT, PASSION.
THOUGH TIRED AND SICK OF LIFE,
I CAN'T DO MUCH TO CHANGE THIS FACT
PEOPLE
I FEAR
MOUNTAIN
I SEE
PEOPLE
I DONT KNOW
SEA
THAT VAST
AMONGST THE CROWDS
AMIDST THE SEA
LOOKING FAR AHEAD
MY FUTURE
MURKY
MY INTERESTS
PEOPLE'S FEAR
I PLEAD
I IMPLORE
I BESEECH
I CRY
YOU TAKE NO HEED TO MY PLEADS
SO WHAT IF I EXIST
THERE ARE REPLICAS OF ME, REHASH,
EVEN BETTER,
EVEN IF I STAY,
EVEN IF I LEAVE,
EVEN IF I EVER EXIST,
ANOTHER ME WOULD BE BETTER.
HOPE
FEAR
TIRE
TEAR
SOME FOUR LETTER WORD
YOU LIKE
I ABHOR
YOU SAY
I HEAR
THEY SCREAM
WE FEAR
I LIVE
YOU DIE
IS IT POSSIBLE TO TURN THE MINUTES BACK TO SILENCE
THE SECONDS TO NOTHING
IF I DIE,
NOBODY CARES,
IF I LIVE,
EVERYONE CARES,
THEY HOPE I CAN VANISH SO I WOULD BE FAR FROM SIGHT
YOU LAUGH EVEN AT THE SLIGHTEST BIT.
I HATE YOUR LAUGHTER
IT'S SO PERIODIC
SO ABNORMAL
YOU HAVE MANIC DEPRESSION.
YOU ARE ABNORMAL
YOU ARE DEAD.
YOU MAKE HARSH COMMENTS,
YOU MAKE LIVE MISERABLE FOR ME,
YOU LIE TO ME,
I FORGIVE YOU
I DO THAT TO YOU,
YOU ABHOR ME,
I CANT COMPREHEND THE SLIGHTEST BIT OF YOU.
YOU,
OF ALL THE PEOPLE,
WHY MUST YOU,
OF ALL THE PEOPLE
THEY ARE WITH YOU,
OF ALL THE PEOPLE,
WHY?
